in memory of miss fontina

miss fontina passed away on November 4, 2015 around 9am.


she was a great bunny. she always took care of fubini and groomed him a lot and made him feel safe. she was very assertive – if you were in her way, she would nip you to say, “get out of my way!” she was also very intelligent. after fubini passed away, we did clicker training and she caught on quickly and really enjoyed it. every night, she would wait for me on one of her boxes that we used for training. she also loved to eat, although she was a little picky about her veggies. and she loved tunnels. she never met a tunnel she didn’t want to run through.

we developed a very strong bond, especially after fubini passed away. I made sure to spend a lot more time with her, playing with her and doing clicker training. sometimes I was tired, but she was always waiting and looking forward to it, so we did some training every night.

her passing was very sudden. she had been in good health, and then she got stasis, which she had once before. I took her to the vet, and they gave her the standard treatment, but then i could tell she seemed to be worse. I was going to take her to the vet first thing in the morning, but then right before we were going to go, i found her on her side in the litterbox. it was the saddest thing to pick up her limp body, still warm.

I thought we had a few more years together. I felt the most sad i’ve ever felt in my life, a small Fontina shaped piece of my heart gone. the vet did an autopsy and said her intestines had got stuck by a hernia she had, and that’s why she passed so suddenly.

you’re my favorite bunny, fontina, we’ll miss you!!!


don’t touch that hat!

my mom made me clean my room when I visited, which i have been avoiding for 10+ years. first of all, apparently i am a hoarder. anyway, among all the crap, i found this gem that i wrote when i was 7.


Once upon a time there was a hat it was suppose to dance and play with people but it was broken one day and it would have a special button to push but when you pushed it it would not dance or play. And if you pushed the botton something very very bad would happen to you like you mite turn into a snail. And a girl named Tracey found the hat and asked her family if they new whose it was but they didn’t know who it belonged to. So her mom didn’t tell any one that she saw a button. And she prested it and turned into a giant peanbutter sandwich!

And Tracey saw her mother and she was wondering why her mother was a big giant peanut butter sandwich. And her mother told her about the box and the button that she pushed. And Tracey’s father saw her mother and asked what happended to her and she told him like she told Tracey. And Tracey’s dad pushed the button and he turned into a rabbit! And it happened the same way as her mother turned into a peanut butter sandwich. And Tracey’s parents couldn’t go to work and. And another day Tracey pressed the button and she turned into a turtle! And it was horible! And Tracey walked very very slow.

But one day the wizard that owned the hat was looking for it and one of Tracey’s brothers was walking with the wizard. And they both were going to Tracey’s house. And the wizard was going to wave his wand so they would be there but his want didn’t work Tracey’s brother turned very small you could hardly see him because he was so so small. And Tracey’s father was good at fixing things so when wizard got there, he told about the hat and hot it was sick. And he was going to wave his wand and make it better but before he did Tracey’s dad found a batery and fixed it and they all were normal again. And had a party.

The End

in memory of mr. fubini


mr. fubini passed away on tuesday 5/12/2015 at about 9:30 am HST.

that week he was shedding a lot, so I had been trying to groom him everyday and try to make sure he was still eating and pooping normally. on Monday night though, he didn’t want to eat. I picked him up to try to groom him, but he started freaking out, like he was scared for his life. he jumped out of my arms and broke one of his nails. I never saw him like that, it was very scary. I tried to jiggle his stomach for a while and gave him some infant’s anti-gas medicine. the last time he wasn’t eating that had helped and he was eating again the next day.

the next morning though, he still didn’t want to eat, so I called his vet’s office to take him in. his normal vet wasn’t working though, so I took him to another clinic, the one kiwi had gone to when he started having seizures.

I brought him and fontina in their carrier. they took us to a room pretty quickly. they asked about what was going on with him, and then they took him out of the carrier. all of a sudden he started freaking out again, like the night before. he was so scared and trying to get away from the vet, but they had him in a towel. he was struggling like crazy, and then suddenly he stopped. “oh no, he’s crashing, we’re taking him to the back.”

a few minutes later the vet came back, carrying his lifeless body still in the towel. “I’m sorry…”

the vet said he probably got so scared he had a heart attack. but the way he was acting probably was related to something else going on, some underlying sickness maybe. he had been losing weight recently as well as muscle mass in his back legs for the past year or two.


mr. fubini and his bun-wife fontina were my first house rabbits. I fostered some other house rabbits before, but they were the first house rabbits I had the privilege of calling my own bunnies. we adopted them in august 2011 from the bunny bunch in Montclair, CA.

mr. fubini always was a more scared rabbit. when he was first getting used to living with us, he would start thumping his feet every time he heard Cameron’s slippers shuffle past his room. sometimes I didn’t hear anything, but all of a sudden he would get scared and run into his box or tunnel if he thought he heard something.


it took him a little while to adjust to his new life. I never knew a rabbit like him either, so I had to learn what was comfortable for him and how to get to know him better. I found out he hated to be picked up, but he loved being pet. he loved having his head rubbed, his neck scratched, and his back massaged. he would sit there for as long as you were willing to give him pets and relax his head right into the ground. if you tried to leave, he would lift his head up, and be like, “why are you stopping??”

sometimes he was kind of a grumpy rabbit. anytime I had to groom him or cut his nails, he would not be happy about it, and then sulk for at least 15 minutes. he would refuse any treats for that time, and turn his butt towards you to make sure you knew he was not happy. the rest of the time though, he was a very nice rabbit.


mr. fubini was also kiwi’s first rabbit friend. most other rabbits didn’t seem to like kiwi, but fubini never was mean to him. he accepted him from the first time he met him, and kiwi really loved him. kiwi was always looking for fubini to sit next to him, even if he had to be in an uncomfortable position. kiwi was just happy to be with his buddy fubini. fubini helped groom kiwi too, especially when kiwi had a hard time grooming himself towards the end of his life.

fubini was the middle-rabbit, often sitting between fontina and kiwi because fontina didn’t like kiwi too much. kiwi helped fubini and fontina come out of their shells more. they didn’t like to come out of their room much before, but kiwi ran out to the living room every morning, and they started following him out.

fubini loved eating hay, kale, lettuce, and joint supplements. he did not like to try new things. when he first got prescribed the joint supplements, he licked it and turned away. I had to chop it into little pieces and mix it with his pellets to get him to eat it. by the end, it was his favorite thing to eat, and he would come out to the living room if I forgot to give it to him. even getting him to eat certain fruits was difficult because he didn’t want to try new things. silly rabbit.

fubini also loved to sleep in his beds. he loved to sleep under our bed too, a nice dark safe place. his favorite toy was the wicker balls. I called those “rabbit crack,” because he could eat up one of those things with fontina in less then 10 minutes.


fubini really loved fontina. he loved to sit by her everyday. he loved having her groom him. he always would run over to sit by her, and stick his head under her head so she could groom him. he hardly returned the favor, but fontina didn’t mind. she always lovingly groomed him all the time. she wasn’t as scared as him, and gave him a lot of comfort.

when fubini passed, I was so worried about fontina. how heartbreaking to lose her hus-bun of so many years. the first few days she looked for him all over the house. I didn’t know what to do. I heard that letting a rabbit spend some time with their dead mate can help them reach closure, but I messed up and didn’t make arrangements for that.

thankfully, fontina has been eating normally and seems to be doing okay. I’ve been trying to make sure to spend more time with her and make sure she isn’t lonely. we’ve been doing clicker training everyday as a fun activity and as exercise, because fontina is kind of overweight actually. I’m not sure if she’d want a new friend; we’ll see how it goes. for now, we’ll just take it day by day, and treasure our time with fontina.

in memory of mr. kiwi bun


mr. kiwi bun passed on Tuesday, October 28, 2014 around 8pm HST.

On the Friday before that, October 24, he had a series of small seizures. I was still at work, but Cameron’s parents were able to rush him to a vet. Cameron and I went right after work to find out how he was doing. The vet said they were going to do a number of tests, and that they recommended keeping him at the hospital overnight to keep him on seizure watch so they could give him anti-seizure medicine if needed.

The next day we went to visit him and bring him some of his favorite foods – lettuce, apples, grapes. They said he’d had some seizures at night, but he recovered quickly and was still eating normally. He seemed almost normal when we visited, just a little drugged up. He enjoyed his grape and apple pieces very much. But then he tried to scratch his ear, and he fell on his side and was shaking. It was the first time we saw him have a seizure. A few seconds later, he was back up and eating. But then he had another short seizure, so they had to take him back right away and give him some medicine.

Because he seemed to recover so quickly and go back to normal, the vet wasn’t sure at first if they were seizures. He said usually it would phase rabbits more and they wouldn’t normally go right back to eating. The test wouldn’t be back for a couple days, so we decided to keep him at the hospital for more monitoring. The seizures seemed to happen more at night, but for the first three days they didn’t really increase or decrease in frequency. We tried to visit again on Sunday, but they were so busy at the vet’s office that even after an hour we couldn’t see him. We dropped off some more veggies for him and went home.

On Monday night we went to visit him again. He was drugged up again, but still ate two pieces of lettuce during our visit. And he didn’t have any seizures this time, so I was still hoping for the best that he could recover and come home. The best case would be that he had EC (Encephalitozoon Cuniculi), a protozoal infection that could cause neurological symptoms. They already started treating him for that in hopes that if he had it, it might help him get better. Some of the tests came back normal, which was kind of good that nothing internally seemed off, but it also meant that if it wasn’t EC, it was probably some other neurological issue, which might not be treatable.

On Tuesday afternoon, I was at work and the vet called. Kiwi had taken a turn for the worse. He had more seizures and he must have had a more severe one, because he became unconscious. They weren’t sure if he would pass any moment. The vet also said she had consulted with another vet on the blood test results, and they suspected he probably had a brain tumor or some kind of brain lesion. She asked if we wanted to put him to sleep. I called Cameron because he was done with work, and we decided we should put Kiwi to sleep. Cameron spoke to the vet and they said Kiwi was having trouble breathing, should they give him oxygen? They said he might suffer more without the oxygen, so Cameron told them to give him the oxygen and that we would rush over right after work so we could try to say bye to Kiwi before they put him to sleep, if he didn’t pass before then.

I left work as soon as I could and went to pick up Cameron at home. He said the vet had just called, and amazingly, Kiwi was awake again and eating! When we got there, they took us to the back of the hospital. They turned off the oxygen so we could open the door and visit with him. He looked tired, but was still diligently eating some of his kale and pellets. I gave him a lot of pets and told him we all loved him very much. He had two more small seizures, and I helped him back up so he could eat a little more. Then the vet put him to sleep.

I miss Kiwi a lot, but I’m glad that he didn’t have to suffer too long or too much, and I’m thankful that we had a chance to say bye to him. He was in the hospital for four days. The first three days he was having about a dozen seizures a day, but recovering quickly. The last day he suffered more, but it helped us know it was his time to go, and even to the end, he was such a fighter and never gave up.

He was with us for two wonderful years, and I have so many good memories of our time together. He, Fontina, and Fubini lived in their own room. Every morning when I opened the gate, he came racing out down the hallway to wait for his breakfast by the refrigerator. Then he would happily eat his pellets and veggies. Fontina and Fubini get distracted during mealtimes or sometimes eat over the course of a couple hours, but Kiwi would single-mindedly eat up every morsel of food and enjoy every bite. Then he would usually find a nice spot in the kitchen to relax for a while, often right next to the fridge.


If he heard you open the fridge though, he would come and see if you were getting him something to eat! “Is that for me? Are you getting me a snack? I love snacks!” It was difficult not to say yes, he was so excited and happy to get a bit of lettuce or celery or maybe even a grape! Sometimes we would be cooking dinner, and he would follow us around the kitchen as we cooked. Such a friendly and happy bunny.

He especially loved eating his veggies. Everyday he happily munched a huge pile of veggies away. Pretty much he would never turn down any veggies! And then when he got special treats like apples or blackberries or strawberries, or his favorite, grapes!, he was so happy and messy as he ate them. All the juice would get on the floor and on him, but then he would try to lick it all up and get every sweet drop of it. It was very fun to watch him enjoy all his treats.


He loved being with his bunny friends too, Fontina and Fubini. They often all sat together in a bunch in bed or on the floor. Towards the end, Kiwi was having more trouble grooming himself, so I saw Fontina and Fubini helping him more, which I’m sure made him happy. He also helped them come out of their shells more. Sometimes they would follow him out to hallway and the kitchen. They started to come out of their room a lot more with Kiwi’s example. Their favorite place now is under our bed. Usually every morning when I open the gate now, they will make sure it seems safe, then hop to our room and wait for breakfast.


Kiwi loved to run up and down the hallway. He liked to sit in a sunny spot and take a nap in the kitchen. He also really liked sitting under a small table we sometimes have in the kitchen. During the holidays, his favorite spot was right under the Christmas tree. He would sit there all afternoon or night. He really liked spending time in the kitchen and living room with us. If I was home and left the gate open, he usually hung out with me there as I watched TV or cooked or played piano. Mostly just lounging around, but if you looked like you were going to the fridge, he would scramble right up and run over in anticipation.

He was a very happy rabbit, and I’m glad we all got to enjoy these past two years together. I miss him a lot, but I try to remember how he lived life with such joy and how much he enjoyed spending time with his friends and family. It’s been a good reminder for me to make sure to treasure my time with Cameron, Fontina, Fubini, my family, and my friends. Thanks for being such a wonderful friend, Kiwi. I hope you are at peace at Rainbow Bridge and happily eating lots of grapes and veggies 🙂


rabbit update

good news, everyone, kiwi is doing a lot better. I have been monitoring his weight, and he is slowly gaining weight. I have been slowly increasing his pellet intake too, since the vet said that will help him maintain his weight. he still has some sneezing, so that will probably still be a chronic problem that may need treatment if it gets worse.

fontina and fubini are also doing well. fubini had some stiff joints at his last vet visit though, so now he is on some oxbow join supplements. he also lost some weight, so I am monitoring everyone’s weight and trying to make sure they maintain healthy weights. sometimes fubini will just eat a little at a time, so I have to keep trying to see if he is hungry. his new favorite spot to hang out is under the bed.

fontina is still a little chubby, but she has lost some weight so that is good. I have been having fubini and fontina stand up to get their veggies to help them get some more exercise. they seem to enjoy it too, so we’ll keep doing that. actually fubini and fontina have been coming out of their room a lot more recently. I have them eat dinner in the bathroom and then they’ll often check out the living room and/or the bedroom. sometimes I’m not sure where all the rabbits are! I think everyone is happy though, so that is the main thing 🙂